I Cannot Explain It

My bizarre behavior.

I didn't know it until my own mother pointed it out to me over my visit home: I no longer have strong emotional attachment to my boyfriend.

He said the "L" word when I came back to Seattle. I was about to turn to him and tell him how distant and unconnected we had become.

I suppose this can all be traced back to that weekend, when we talked about where we were in the relationship and blah blah blah. We realized we were in different places; I was ready to say the "L" word and he was not.
Continuing the relationship from there somehow dissolved this strong emotion I had for him. Being in love with someone in a relationship, knowing that the significant other does not love you, is detrimental.

This, (and perhaps several other small things causing friction in the relationship) is why I am now single. I cannot lead him on.

I had such a blast with him. It is difficult to see any other person or experience topping what I had.

The only part that hurts me, is that he is unhappy. It sucks to be on either side of a breakup. grrr.
I am not excessively upset over this breakup, which confuses me. Either I'm really over it, or I have an emotional barrier somewhere. If I do, I certainly can't find it much less release it.

Good news though; he's moved in with my ex-roommate (The R). This appears to be helping both of them financially, which is fantastic. The only bizarre thing is that The R reads this blog, and I only hope that the feelings I put here do not affect their roommate relationship, and/or she forgets this blog as soon as she reads it ;)